Night Time Day Dreams Of Suicide And You


"Um why are you texting me"

"Well I am a bit drunk"
“I took some pills”
“and i miss you”

"what do you mean you took some pills"

"i mean i want to sleep forever"

"no don’t"

"im sorry"

"go tell someone!"

"im telling you"

"why me?!"

"because you’re the last person i want on my mind, the last that spoke to me. i miss you"

"throw up!!"

"just like old times huh? just like you did for me"

"do it NOW!!"

"do you still care about me?"

"of course"

"you never said goodbye you left me hanging all these years you’re a LIAR"

"fucking throw up already!!!"

"prove it to me that you care. prove to me that one person gives a fuck about me, and i will"

"this isn’t okay"

"I know"
“prove it”

"you were my best friend for 2 years. you made me laugh at 2am when i was crying. you’ve made me smile and cry and you made me want you. you are special and irreplaceable. and im sorry for every cold word i said. i love you so much, i have all these years. please throw up the pills and get help."

“i love you more”

  • society: oh you have your period? well you have two options.
  • woman: okay.
  • society: you can use sanitary pads, which make you feel like you are wearing a diaper, and have the added fun benefit of being extremely uncomfortable and give you the extreme paranoia that they will not be enough coverage and at any moment with any movement or sudden sneeze you'll bleed over onto your clothes and walk around all day with blood stained trousers while everyone points and laughs at you.
  • woman: sounds awful. what's my second option.
  • society: a penis shaped wad of cotton that you shove uncomfortably inside yourself and it catches the blood before it leaves your body.
  • woman: still seems pretty awful.
  • society: wait! it gets better! there's the outside chance that using those will kill you!
  • woman: well, are they at least free? like how men can have access to free condoms? i mean, it's not like i'm choosing for this to happen.
  • society: HAHAHA! that's funny. no, you have to pay for them. and they're really fucking expensive.
  • woman:
  • society: oh, and if you tell anyone that you ARE on your period, your judgement, opinions, and reactions are going to be dismissed as the crazy ramblings of a lunatic.
  • woman:
  • society:
  • woman: i think i'll go with my third option.
  • society:
  • woman:
  • society: what third option?
  • woman: i think i'll bleed on everything you love.


things i needed to hear in health class:

  • puberty might make you squishier and its ok
  • vaginas have a smell and it’s a ok
  • all kinds of people with all kinds of bodies have gr8 sex
  • genitals do not all look the same and variety is rad
  • people have stretch marks sometimes
  • people have pimples on their butts sometimes
  • people have cellulite sometimes
  • gender =/= sex
  • sex =/= scary danger FEAR
  • bodies aren’t scary or gross 
  • everything is ok